sorry dudes.

Sorry for the lack of posts.

As you can see, keeping up with this blog plus school = fail. But I promise, all you adoring fans, that I will try to be better, that is if I have any? ha.

There has been some new additions in my life since January 5th.

well, first umm school. I am taking history, english, anthropology and two education courses but I have monday and friday’s off. 4 day weekend, every weekend (:

Sick obsession with Friday Night Lights, tv show not movie. But I am on the last season ): and I don’t want it to end.

Wolf Shirt, many have judged me on the shirt and the cost but it was all worth it.

Over a couple snow days, 6E thought it was the perfect opportunity to make music video’s. We made one for Lizzie and Kelsie but unfortunately you can only see Kelsie’s. Liz’s is for special viewers only.

Here is the link. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FdkcGdeOJL8

Baby Derf is on his way and an official new addition to our team!

Story time: I was at the Derf’s, Monday night usual, and we were talking about the babe coming and I say, “When we have the baby…” ha and as you can see, we have a cozy little family.

Wanted to share this quote by C. S. Lewis that I LOVE.

“I think earth, if chosen instead of Hell, will turn out to have been, all along, only a region in Hell: and earth, if put second to Heaven, to have been from the beginning a part of Heaven itself.” C. S. Lewis

God has pushed me to mature so much in the last 6 and half weeks. He has revealed to me how much I long for man’s praise, especially those I look up to spiritually. And that I strive so hard to not disappoint them and when I do, I am extremely hard on myself. God has also showed me that me being so hard on myself, just in general, is very unhealthy. But I do this because I feel I need to make up for my past. I think, if people really knew, if dyt leadership really knew about me before I met Christ… well I don’t know. Next, God has shown me that this “being hard on myself” comes from an inner heart issue, the issue of loving myself. Because I don’t. I don’t find anything of worth in me, anything of value or praise so I look to doing good works to show myself, hey, you’re not so bad. I hid behind the good works so I don’t really have to face the deep dislike of myself.

and you thought I was so tough.

hmm, that was a lot and you might of thought uh, duh nina. But a lot of this never clicked with me, I needed to figure it out, I needed to see it. God really revealed this deep dark sin inside of my heart and now knowing all of this, I feel I can start to really look to Christ to find my identity, find all my worth and know that I am a new creation through Him.

“Not that I have already obtained this or  am already perfect, but I press on to make it my own, because Christ Jesus has made me his own. Brothers, I do not consider that I have made it my own. But one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 3:12-14

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