I am ready for spring. I am ready for sun. I am ready for color.
Side note: everyone has been pressuring me to do tumblr but I refuse. So, stop it people, it’s not gonna happen.
The Lord has been teaching me quite a deal of things this past month or so. He has shown me the depth of my sin. It has been a tough but a humbling experience to see the depth of my sin but I know it is something that I will never stop learning about. I get so fixated on my performance and what I am doing that I lose sight of Christ and what He has done for me. I lose sight that it is all about Him who by grace, saved me from myself.
And, God has taught me that He is good. But more importantly, He is good in all circumstances. He is good even when I see no fruit in Vandalia, He is good when life is stressful and hard and He is good even when I don’t think He is. Also, I don’t want my faith to be based on feelings, I don’t want my faith to be shallow or superficial. And this is something I want to know with all my heart, my mind and my soul. That He is always good.
And finally I have learned, all I have in this world is Him. That my close friends will always disappoint. My roommates will always disappoint. My community will disappoint. Those I look up to will disappoint. Butler will disappoint. My family will disappoint. And I will disappoint. I can only find my joy in the Lord. He is the only one that is lasting and will not fail. uh duuuh.
& though I feel like I still have so much to learn, I am encouraged to look how far Christ has brought me from the beginning of my freshman year.
“Yet the LORD longs to be gracious to you; therefore He will rise up to show you compassion.” Isaiah 30:18